The rap mogul Jay Z confessed about cheating and past marriage struggles with wife Beyonce in an interview with New York Times.
He further went on to reveal that therapy did him some good admitting to infidelity and to find answers to what caused him to stray off his marriage.
With Beyonce expressing her marriage discontent in her 2016 visual album ‘Lemonade,’ wherein one of the songs ‘Sorry’ Beyonce calls out Jay-Z's reported mistress “Becky With Good Hair.”
In response, the rapper also released his own album 4:44 on 30 June 2017, in the track “Family Feud” Jay Z retorts back by saying “Leave me alone, Becky” to aforementioned Beyonce’s line.
Jay-Z and Beyonce, source: The Sun
The Grammy winner’s honest confession about his marriage turmoil and shed some light on how difficult it was to see Beyonce struggle, "The hardest thing is seeing pain on someone's face that you caused, and then have to deal with yourself " he said.
In the interview, he also mentions how his impoverished upbringing in Brooklyn has scarred him and has failed to shake it off.
He said: "I grew so much from the experience, “But I think the most important thing I got is that everything is connected. Every emotion is connected and it comes from somewhere. And just being aware of it. Being aware of it in everyday life puts you at such ... an advantage. You know, you realise that if someone's racist toward you, it ain't about you. It's about their upbringing and what happened to them, and how that led them to this point. You know, most bullies bully. It just happens.”
'Oh, you got bullied as a kid so you trying to bully me.' I understand," he says.
"You have to survive. So you go into survival mode, and when you go into survival mode, what happens? You shut down all emotions. So, even with women, you gonna shut down emotionally, so you can't connect.
"In my case, like, it's deep. And then all the things happen from there: infidelity."
The executive editor Dean Banquet who interviewed the rapper didn’t push further to reveal the details about his infidelity.
However, the couple seems to have put things in the past and moved on from their recent scandal, with couple expanding their family with twin Rumi and Sir in June.
New York native also added that his relationship with his mother Gloria Carter is even stronger, with her coming out a gay from his track “Smile” earlier this year. He was aware of it from his teens but never spoke about it with each other.
Jay-Z with his mother Gloria Carter, source: Rolling Stone
Talking about his mother he added “But we never spoke about it, Until like recently now we start having these beautiful conversations and just really getting to know each other. We were always good friends but now we’re really great friends.”